I’m a first-time mom of a 3-month-old, and I absolutely adore my daughter. She is such a happy and easy baby; I feel like I don’t deserve her. The first few weeks were tough because she ate all the time (she’s a big baby and ate hourly) and could only sleep properly on me. Every time we put her in her crib, she startled herself awake. I’m terrified of SIDS, so we never co-slept (we share a room), and I was sleep-deprived in those first few weeks, which are almost a blur now.
I took photos and videos, but looking back, I wish I had taken more—they just don’t seem like enough! I’ve already forgotten so much about the newborn days, and it hurts. Time goes so fast; I already miss her being a baby, even though she still is one. I scroll on my phone while she sleeps on me during the day, but I regret it now because it feels like I missed out on just staring at her sleeping. Just typing this makes me cry.
So, what do you do to feel present and not feel like you want to stop time? When she’s awake, I’m only with her—we play, sing, cuddle, etc., and I record many everyday moments now. Is this just life now, and will I always mourn the current phase?
It’s been ten months, and I’m still infatuated with this stage! I cry when I look back at her adorable newborn pics!!! I have to tell myself that I am insane and that she is still a baby, albeit a little bigger. But that’s natural! They grow so quickly!! Take as many photographs and movies as you can!! You’ll look back on them with joy!!! I cry every now and then because I miss her as a newborn, but I am still infatuated with her and what each day will bring!! She got another tooth a few days ago, and I’m literally crying thinking of my gummy baby from a few months ago!!!
My baby is only 5 weeks old, and I feel this way. I feel like I didn’t take enough images and movies of her in the first two weeks, which I regret. I find myself crying about how much I don’t want to miss all the time, lol. No advice. Just solidarity.
SAME. It’s been 8 weeks, and I really regret not taking more videos. I was resentful about sleep deprivation, stress, and depression and didn’t accept it. Now I try to film her as often as possible and take a lot of images. I don’t want to forget how small she was, as she’s only 2 months old and already wearing 3-6 outfits. I am heartbroken.
Thank you. I guess we’re all in the same situation. I liked the newborn era, even though I couldn’t nap throughout the day with her and was always sobbing from exhaustion.
I understand. I’ve had mini panic attacks when I look at my nearly 5-month-old. I barely remember her newborn days because of my PPD/PPA, which sucks because she was an easy newborn! Following our pediatrician’s recommendation, we started trying purées this week, beginning with carrots. I had a full-on meltdown yesterday when discussing it, especially because my husband, who is always joking, started talking about college. I was ugly crying into my baby’s hair.
He tries to remind me of all the fun new experiences that come with her growing up. I used to think I was one and done because the first two months were rough on my mental health, but now? I want more.
The baby blues had me crying one minute about not feeling anything for her and the next about her growing up and leaving me. My poor hubby had no idea what to make of me. Thankfully, when I’d scream about how I didn’t care about her and was a terrible mother, he’d say, "You literally just had a tantrum because she wouldn’t stay small forever. "You love her.
Right? I believe I had four images of myself before the age of one, but they were lost or misplaced. I wish there were more with my mon, and perhaps that is why I am so eager to give something down to my child.
My little one is 3 months old too! She seems so big now, almost like a giant, haha.
My husband went back to work when she was 4 weeks old. I saw a reel on Instagram about always thinking of the newborn stage lasting just 6 weeks, but I can’t find it now. It made us all cry, and he said, “Never send me stuff like that again!” He was so upset about having to go back to work so early.
I definitely miss her being so small, but I think the craziness of the newborn stage stops you from fully appreciating it. I hated when people said to “soak up the newborn bubble” because we were trying our best, haha!
I guess it always feels like this. We’ll definitely miss the current stage too.
Now I try to film her as often as possible and take a lot of images. I don’t want to forget how small she was, as she’s only 2 months old and already wearing 3-6 outfits. 
I am heartbroken.
I want more.